Saturday, November 21, 2009

i don't even know who i am anymore




You like? It's my 18 inch pink Christmas tree on my desk. J11 decorated it. Tomorrow I'll show you my six foot white Christmas tree that's going up in my bedroom.

When we get back from the beach we'll be putting the live tree up in the living room.

This afternoon we're going back to the craft store to buy the boy's 18 inch trees for their room.

I don't know who I am anymore.

I've always pretty much disliked the holidays. Dreaded them. OK, at moments hated them.

Yes, it is all tied into my childhood. No, I am not going to bore you with all that.

I think I'm done with that.

I KNOW. That. Is. Huge. To say the least.

Maybe it's the Lexapro. Maybe it's all the yoga. Maybe it's the journaling. Maybe Stacie is just wearing me down with all her retro cheer.

Whatever. I'm so excited about Christmas, more than I ever have been. And I gotta say, kinda feels good.

12 comments:

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

I'm glad you're feeling good--even if you're violating the "Nothing before Thanksgiving" rule!

Em said...

This is great! I'm so completely thrilled for you - embrace it sista!!!!!

AnastasiaSpeaks said...

I love the time from Thanksgiving until New Year. It's filled with joy and all kinds of yummy things.

Enjoy every second. :)

Anna See said...

Yay! And I love that retro pink tree.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

I'm glad to read this.

slouchy said...

Good for you! Though I'm not even thinking about Christmas until Thanksgiving is over. Thinking about two holidays at once makes my brain hurt.

Jen on the Edge said...

I just love that pink tree. I truly do. And I love that you're feeling good and excited about Christmas.

La'Tonya Richardson said...

Glad you're getting into the spirit! I'm waiting till the day after Thanksgiving to decorate. Then it's on!

Vodka Mom said...

thank God.


Now pass the Christmas cookies.

Suzanne said...

I'm happy that you're excited about the holidays and I love the pink tree. I'm reprising my white Christmas tree from Wal-mart again this year, only this time I'm doing it with red decorations, going for a Swiss theme to match the house in Colorado. Can't wait to see a pic of YOUR white tree!

Kate Coveny Hood said...

I love it! And now I can't wait for Christmas decorating..

Stacie said...

You are who you've always been...a cool chick who is fun to be with and a very good friend!!! I LOVE the tree!